I'm putting it down to stress..

Perfect fast all day, ... til I got home.
Slowly working out that it's how I'm destressing though.
A lot is going on with my grandma and such... putting on a brave face all day, get home and blegh owejgfoagfiehrgaeirg.

Hadn't purged for months and months... but I really just had to. My stomach went from empty to overflowing in no time at all.

But again today, said no to hot chips and lollies! Felt really proud of that :)
So I guess that this will be something I have to work on.. keeping up the momentum til dinner.
Feel stupid after yesterday's "Tomorrow will be perfect" and now saying I don't know how long.. but it'll happen.

*sigh* Reality sucks sometimes.

Decided that I'm not going to weigh myself til Monday morning.

• My family are getting a bit sus with me walking into the parent's bathroom 3 times a day weighing myself. I'm so paranoid. I don't EVER want to be above 70kg again. Finally below it... Though, when I'm having children, I don't think I'll mind by then :)
• I've got that party to go to on Saturday and netball semi-finals. Going to drink A Lot of water on Saturday.. so don't want to look at the number on the scales and want to cry because I gained 2 kilos.. even thouhg I know it's water retention.. it still sucks. So not going to eat a thing at the party, will go running on Sunday. Will be ready and *fingers crossed* lighter by Monday morning.

Lauren:
I know exactly what you mean... totally forget about all the little things that make it just that much easier until it's way too late. So stupid that in my head.. I'm laughing hysterically. Perhaps that's a mix of the sudden increase in blood sugar and needing more sleep...

Kitty:
I know right.. fast all day just to ruin it. Sucks.
Thanks a million for your support. Really, REALLY helps having someone who believes in you!

Lola:
re: Not eating friends food. It's a good method :) As cruel as it sounds... whenever a friend of mine is eating chips or chocolate or anything really... especially if it's high cal., part of me rejoices on the inside that it's their calories, not mine :)
Big tablets are stupid. Have you tried swallowing it with a mega-mouthful of water?


Thank you ladies :)
You're all brilliant!
Love xx