Thursday, September 9, 2010

Rain.


It's raining outside here in Sydney. First actual rain in a fair while. Down south in Victoria is flooded. Me being a big fan of English in school means I can't help but find some symbolism in this.

As the rains have come so suddenly and intensely... it relates to how I'm suddenly getting exam pressure, and more and more people at school are growing taller and thinning out as their body streches upwards. I'm 1.7m tall... but my, I feel terribly short.

My body won't co-operate. At all. I'll go an entire day eating tiny portions and drinking lots of water. Low fat yoghurt, toast, low cal. items. Get home, mini-binge. It's as if it is chemically engraved into my brain that at 4pm everyday, eat eat eat.

I  c a n ' t  s e e m  t o  w i n 
n o  m a t t e r  w h a t  I  d o . . .

1 comments:

Issyla said...

I liked the rain metaphor in your post (I like English too) but I'm sorry it shows that you're feeling down =(. Some tips for preventing binges right before they stop:

1. count to 100, by the time you reach 100 the need to binge usually passes
2. remind yourself why you want to lose weight and how your binge won't let you achieve any of that.
3. drink at least 2 whole glasses of water
4. if all else fails run out of your kitchen and don't let yourself out of your room.

Good luck <3 I hope you feel better!

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