It's true :)
Went to the coast for an excursion today, looking at coastal managent for geography, etc. Wasn't the best day of my life, but it was reasonably good. The things that made it fun were my friends :) Gee, I love those poeple!
Today's eating was a bit all over the place. Am feeling quite depressed in terms of my self body image and such. Was looking through photos of girls that I know that are my age and amazingly skinny and gorgeous.. and have it all. Held back tears. When I was younger, pre-highschool, pre-ED, pre-teen... I was happy.. and I had plans to be That Girl. Good at everything, but really down-to-earth and drop dead gorgeous.
That really happened.... :/
*note the sarcasm, yeah?*
Anyway, nothing I can do about it now. Finishing some maths for school tomorrow before I head off to bed. Might do some situps.. but been feeling dizzy all day, on/off. Don't think it's food related... just not quite with it today. At least Mum gave me my ipod back.
And I think I'm addicted to the scales...
I say I won't use them... but I walk past my parent's room, knowing that just inside their ensuite are the scales....
Monday morning .. 69.5
Wednesday morning .. 68.75
Today:
B - 2 slices of toast, butter, cornflakes with full-cream milk ...%&#^&
R - 2 choc+caramel biscuits, given to me by a friend, and it was his birthday, sips of strong black tea
L - more strong black tea, 2 orange snakes (Natural Confectionary Co.)
4 - ....... not proud of this at all... bowl of rice with corn and cheese... full-cream milk with milo %^&#&#$& .....
D - spaghetti bol with cheese, glass of full-cream milk :|
I'm thinking.. that my body is craving calcium or fat.
Probably isn't helping that I got my period this morning.
RAWR.
Ahh well.
Too tired to worry right now.
Sweet dreams xxx
1 comments:
Oh yeah! our beaches ROCK!! They're the best :D
Don't worry about the food- tomorrow is another day.. and ttom always makes cravings and food harder- stay strong! you can do it!!!
(& I think we're all addicted to the scales!)
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