Dear Seyon,
You really are the best friend I could dream of. I trust you with almost everything and I'm so sorry that you'll never know (if I have my way) just how bad my self-loathing is. You'll know of my issues revolving food ... but other than that, I appreciate you so much. When I say to you that you're like the brother I didn't quite get... I'm being fully serious, you're just my brother from another mother.
With so much love and appreciation, Lucy x
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Mmm.. taken up the 30 day challenge of writing letters to various different parties. I'm hoping it will help me vent out some bottled emotions along with be a little reminder to post more regularly.
Why "A fresh slate.." ?
Because I'm back (justtt) under 70kg. Which means I'm in the 60s (duhh..) and that's important to me. When I'm 70+, my brain just gives up a little (a lot) but the 60s seem to be so much more achievable. I was something like 69.5 this morning, and am certain to be 69 tomorrow. I had 2 weetbix with low fat milk for breakfast, will not eat lunch, and have a tiny dinner. Will do some sit-ups tonight... I really slacked off on them, which is bad.
So basically I'm feeling really motivated today :-)
On Friday I woke up with a really sore neck and as the day progressed the tenderness spread throughout my torso, back and limbs. By late Friday night I had a ferver-like temperature, terrible headaches, dizzy spells and a general feeling of pain. I slept the temperature off, which was a total relief, and as of today, the tenderness of my whole body is almost gone. Now I just have a phlegm-y throat (eww..) and mild headaches. Hopefully I'll wake tomorrow mostly, if not fully, healthy as I have my end of year School Certificate exams over the next few days. Each one is 2 hours and 10 minutes long. -sigh- Just want to get them over and done with.
Gained a new follower over the past few days... my face when I realised was probably priceless. I was really excited :-)
OH!!! annddd I actually checked my gmail today only to realised that my blog was chosen as a Top Pro-Ana Blog 2010. You can see my happy little badge over there >>>> ... In the top text box..
=D
Well, knowing me and how little I enjoy studying science (convection currents can go suck it..) ...I'll probably post again later today. 'Til we meet again, love xxxx
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