Assorted.

Just slowly going crazy... Any normal 16 year old would be able to place the good things in their life on one side of a set of scales, and the negative on the other side, with the positives weighing far more than the bad... But whenever in my life have I been even remotely normal?

My mind is, and has been for a few months now, quite unsettled. I have days where things couldn't be better... but they never last long. I become so demotivated that I sit in a ball in my room for an hour, wanting nothing but to cry for hours. Food has been my therapist. Again. I have trouble sharing my problems with people... even know I don't want to ramble... Perhaps I'm afraid that I'll scare you away...

That being said, somethings are going quite well. Eg, topped my class in a maths exam. I literally laughed when the teacher said I got the highest mark (89/100). Was crazy.

I auditioned for next year's school musical this afternoon. Fame. Went terribly... but being year 11 next year means I'll be the eldest year partaking in it, so hopefully my age should pull a couple strings, plus the teachers like me. Even if I did have to excuse myself halfway through my audition and sit outside for 25 minutes, crying like the pathetic little sod that I am.

sod: First read that word in a novel... I had to google it. But my, how I love that word. It sounds just so much like the person it describes. Onomatopoeia for the win :-) ....English class nerd and proud. :-)

Went back in and redid it all. Seemed to be OKAY. But will have to wait til next week to know.

OH and I didn't get into peer support. So I'm rather devastated about that.

Also, nearly got hit by lightning on Friday afternoon walking home from school. I squealed like a little girl and then laughed at myself insanely. The same thunder and lightning storm fried one of our computers, so the post I'm posting this from is needed by my sister... so I'll have to cut the ramblings there.

-sigh- Lucky you though.

Thanks for reading.

Might weigh myself tomorrow morning... I haven't in a long time. All I know is I feel like a blimp 24/7. I'm guessing 74kg. Eww.

Take care my dears, much love.

And hello to the two new followers that appeared whilst I was off, being invisible, fat and lonely.

xx