Wiping the fog from the window...

This first section is in response to annamaria and her comment on the post about ice-cream. Had photos of multiple over weight people.
Her comment
"sorry but I did not like that post.
you really shouldn't make fun of other people, including fat people -yes I'm ana and actually say that.
use it as a reverse thinspo all you want but if you feel better after seeing these images then your problem is not your body.
These images just make me so sad.
-and that's only MY opinion."

"then your problem is not your body. "
I need to explain this (the post, my emotions, the whole kit'n'kaboodle), and I'm apologising in advance if this makes minimal to zero sense... had quite the long day :/

A little background information that delves into my genetic history/future.
All of the women on my maternal side have osteoperosis (brittle bones) and an issue with their thyroid glands. The previous 2 generations of women on my paternal side have died from/currently have leukemia.
Along with a tendancy for weak/overly flexible joints.
So the outlook it pretty grim unless I am rather persistent in avoiding them.

But my main focus of that rant is the thyroid.
Taken from good ol' wikipedia:

Hypothyroidism


Hypothyroidism is the underproduction of "thyroid hormones" (T3 and T4). Hypothyroid disorders occur when the thyroid gland is inactive or underactive as a result of improper formation from birth, or the removal in whole or the removal in part of the thyroid gland.

Symptoms include: abnormal weight gain, tiredness, baldness, temperature intolerance (both heat and cold), and palpitation.

 
At my heighest weight... it was the cliff edge. Either start making some serious changes to end the binges/purging/etc.... or continue on and head straight towards a path that will only get harder to turn around from as time goes by.
 
I haven't lost much. Not yet. But that little bit is proof to myself that I don't have to live in a constant battle with my weight (and duh.. I'm going to. EDNOS does that to you... but I mean specifically, a battle with obesity).
 
So I'm extremely sorry that it came across as me boosting my ego and feeling supieor over those with a higher weight than I... but that is truly not my intentions.
I see over weight people and I begin to panic that that could so easily be me. Scary thing is..  it's true.
Seeing others in a situation that I could so easily slip into and then forever struggle to get out of is both frightening for me but also just the slightest reassuring that I've taken one little baby step away from that future for myself.
 
Hope that clears the water a little.... don't know what your reaction to it all will be, but hoping that this isn't going to turn into some rediculously arguement...
 
 
 
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Recenly:
~ feeling very withdrawn socially
 
~ did a touch of shopping yesterday, was nice
 
~ getting impatient for year 11 to get here so that I can get through year 12 and finally start university... I've only been dreaming about it since I was tiny.
 
~ booked my Ls test today.. well Mum did for me while I was at school. Thursday afternoon (L-plates are the first level for your license). Can Not Wait !
 
~ started writing my shopping list for when I get to the USA for the holidays.
what are the good stores there?????
Like.. what are The stores to shop in.. haha... clue me in ! :)
Someone previously mentioned forever 21, and I've heard a lot about Hot Topic...
 
I want to go op shoping. Now.
Second-hand book. Vintage jewelry and clothes.
Trickets and shelves.
 
When I have my own car, my Ps and petrol... I'm going to be the biggest city kid of the century. (I live in the suburbs.)
 
 

uni car shopping freedom clubbing social-life tea higher-education independance laptop mobile

That's my dreams staring at me in the face. Mocking the 2.5 years I have to wait.
year10isboring.year10isboring.year10isboring.

Already planning how I'm going to make-over my room for uni.



I don't remember any of the night-time dreams these days... cause for concern? I think so.
rah-rah-rah-ramble.

postscript.
many women celebrate the age of 30. i have 30 followers(?) let's party.